insomia

haiz...tis few day always under cant sleep well emotion... i really hate always to be insomia..because of tis,make me always think many things.... erm...like very headache....my brain cant rest a while also... 2day i quite happy,because my brother and sister got bac hometown... so,my house not under silent situation...hahaha...because if them no bac,will just 3 people at home...quite boring....

my feeling

I already resign my be4 part-time job... now i already at home... erm...i feel quite bored at home... because i'm more like always go out...hehe... but when i was working at outside,i sure will miss my mum cook... so,after i went bac hometown,i will call my mum to cook my favourite meat to me.... I got 5 month experienced working at outside ... but i think i prefer study to working... so,now i'm waiting my news school life coming soon... I feel very happy but also quite stress.... tis is because i need to suit de new school life... whatever,i will cheer up be4 my negative thinking and hardworking on my study.... i really wishes my dreams will come true...

I HaTe mYsElf

I hate myself !!!I hate myself !!! why I cant achieved de target I wan? I really very disappointed!!! I wan CRY laughter , but I cant do tat… Because…I cant let my family know about I sa d+ unhappy + disappointed!!! I know they are care of me , but I think they dun know what things I wan…. I also cant control myself feeling….haiz…really very sad…no one care of me…. I am alone…. I feel lonely…. I need my parents , sisters n brother love + care and so on… I dun wan be alone… I dun wan stay at a dark place , I wan fly to de sky….to see bright light My English is poor but I dun give up !!! I wan to cheer up myself…. Whatever so bad I have , I think…. I wan to turn a new leaf life…. I hope I will become more brave + independence + happy + healthy + strongly….so on… I also wish when I decide to do something , my family will support me!!! Will they do tat ? I hope will…because I need their encourage + support…. I also hope god will bless me always got lucky star beside me…. My family and my friends I will also wan god bless them…bcz they are my dear family n frenz…

SiCk!!!

haiz...so bad...i'm sick already...really hate take de medicine...i wan cry le...luckily i'm better den morning le...feel more well already....long time no sick,i feel sick very hard...can sleep well...really so bad!!!i hate it!!!i will more take care myself...wont let de virus come again to me...

Unbelievable!!!

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