I HaTe mYsElf

I hate myself !!!I hate myself !!! why I cant achieved de target I wan? I really very disappointed!!! I wan CRY laughter , but I cant do tat… Because…I cant let my family know about I sa d+ unhappy + disappointed!!! I know they are care of me , but I think they dun know what things I wan…. I also cant control myself feeling….haiz…really very sad…no one care of me…. I am alone…. I feel lonely…. I need my parents , sisters n brother love + care and so on… I dun wan be alone… I dun wan stay at a dark place , I wan fly to de sky….to see bright light My English is poor but I dun give up !!! I wan to cheer up myself…. Whatever so bad I have , I think…. I wan to turn a new leaf life…. I hope I will become more brave + independence + happy + healthy + strongly….so on… I also wish when I decide to do something , my family will support me!!! Will they do tat ? I hope will…because I need their encourage + support…. I also hope god will bless me always got lucky star beside me…. My family and my friends I will also wan god bless them…bcz they are my dear family n frenz…